27th of April

I just thought I would give everyone a quick update. 

I feel so much better I still have pain in my mouth and still can't eat certain foods but I'm managing to eat 3 meals a day which is brilliant. 

I've started to take the kids to school, its brilliant to be a mummy again. 

I went to see everyone at Slimming World today, this was lovely. 

 So everything seems to be going the right way. 

Went back to the doctors yesterday for a check up, my bloods were retaken to make sure all my levels are back to normal. 

I still get sleepy but I do feel a lot better. 

Thank you for all your support 

Love 

Amanda xxxx

18th of April

Hope everyone has had a wonderful Easter. 

I've had a lovely few days, I've started going out, I went to tescos shopping and bumped into a couple of friends which was really nice I must admit though I was shattered when I got home, but it felt great to be doing normal things. 

I had a wonderful visit from a friend of mine (Melaine) who made a beautiful cake for a magazine, once the pictures had been taken Melaine wanted our children to have the cake, I can't show you a picture of it until it has been in the magazine but let me tell you it's outstanding and of course I cried. 

Easter Sunday was lovely the kids woke up to a fun Easter egg hunt, we had a wonderful dinner which I ate some of which is so cool, I've found I can eat toast,  omelettes, rice, salmon, chicken, carrots, peas, sweetcorn, ham, bread and I've even managed to eat a bacon sandwich it takes me for ever to eat a meal due to my mouth still being very sore, but I'm so not letting this beat me I want to be back to normal asap. 

The last few days I've noticed blood in my mucus in the morning so I've phoned one of my nurses today just to check it is normal and it is so that's good news. 

 I'm so in love with my beautiful Easter Tree. 

My Mum and Dad have taken the kids to the caravan for a few days to give me some rest time and to be honest I didn't think I needed it but today has been lovely I've chilled out all day and it's just what I needed. 

I've also been snacking on watermelon which is lovely I've been wanting fruit for weeks but was scared to try it but watermelon has very little citrus in it so I thought I would try it, PERFECT. 

I've also started wearing makeup again so I'm so feeling like Amanda again, just can't wait to dye my hair my roots are so big now lol xx

Got an appointment for speech and language next week this is to see if my mouth is still working ok after all the treatment, I think I'm doing ok the only thing that I find hard is when I need to yawn it really hurts, but I can still talk hehe. 

So everything is good xx

Love 

Amanda xxx

12th of April

So over the last couple of days I've started to feel better, I've tried to stay in the house so I don't pick any more infections. I've managed to nearly clean all the house, the district nurse came to see me to take my blood I should get the results tomorrow fingers crossed my immune is normal, I told her I don't think I need you anymore, I will not waste their time I know how busy they are so she said ok that's fine but if I do need them for anything I must ring them. I've been eating only small meals but I'm eating again and not using my PEG yippee, the weird thing is I don't fancy food it takes me for ever to eat anything but I believe if I keep going I soon will fancy some of my favorite meals. I've lost some weight I'm now back at target (Slimming World) so even though I don't recommend the Cancer diet it's made me feel happy. 

To make today a even more special day there was a knock at the and when I opened it, it was Dawn-Lisa a friend and colleague from Slimming World, she said everyone is thinking about you I was so nearly going to cry when Dawn-Lisa gave me a gift bag when I opened it I did cry, this was inside I'm so lucky xx

 My neck is so much better.  

 

And this is picture of my nails which my beautiful daughter Franchesca has done this evening she wanted me to have some of sparkle back, how cute xxx

I am and I know I keep saying it LUCKY xxx 

All my love 

Amanda xxxx

9th of April

Gosh what a scary crazy few days, I'm allowed to go home yippeee but and small changes for the worse and I need to go back in. 

My white blood cell was 1 and it needs to be a lot higher than that, that's why my body reacted the way it did it's now 1.7 so it's going up but needs to keep going up so bloods got to be checked again in a few days. 

On the plus side my neck is loads better.

 It's crazy how quick it's healed, I'm so glad though because it was so uncomfortable.

I've eaten some proper food today instead of just pump feeding it does hurt my mouth but I want to get back to normal as quick as possible. 

So going to leave it there 

Love 

Amanda xxx

7th of April

Yesterday was a scary day, I was sat having my pump feed when suddenly my heart started beating really fast, I phoned Weston Park who told me that they wanted me to phone 999 for an ambulance, they thought it could be something wrong with my heart. I did and all the time this was happening Franchesca was with me as she is ill and not at school bless her she was calm then started to cry. 

I had my Dad downstairs I also phoned for Lyn and Franchesca phoned for Jason.

I was taken to Doncaster Hospital it turns out I've got an infection and my white blood cells are far too low to fight, so I'm still here and will stay here until I'm better. 

Love 

Amanda xxxx

4th of April

It's been a few days now since last radiotherapy it's odd not going to the hospital everyday but I must admit it's nice my neck has broken out more now  But I'm sure it won't take long to heal.

I managed to walk the dog yesterday but today I feel exhausted so not attempting it. 

We've got 2 of the kids off school ill which makes things tough on grandparents, lyn been here 2 days my mum and dad coming rest of week, I just wish I could look after them. 

So a few weeks of recovery they said and then it's me just getting stronger, district nurse been today to make sure I'm ok, very nice nurse she was too and has ordered me some medication from doctors which was kind of her. 

I'm still struggling with the yuk coming up and the dribbling but again this is all the healing process. 

Love to you all

Amanda xxxxxxx