19th of February

Hi Sorry I've not been on my blog for a couple of days, this 1st week has been really tough, I don't think I could ever have imagined that it would be like this, and I've been told it's going to get worse even tougher but I need to get through this. 

I got to the end of the first week of radiotherapy and Chemo, thank goodness my father in law took me to the hospital Wednesday and Thursday and to be fair to him he was brilliant with me looked after me like I was a princess, then Friday Wendy took me bless her, we were at the hospital for nearly 5 hours I had 4 appointments. 

The first was the radiotherapy which was fine, I've certainly got use to putting the mask on.

The second was with the dietitian who explained that I needed to try all the supplement drinks so we can decide what I like best but eventually they will be used to feed me through my PEG. I was also told I could eat anything I wanted and not to worry about the calories, for the first time i can eat as many chocolate freddos as I want, but I don't fancy them :( 

The third was with Dr Foran who went over my bloods and gave me a general once over and said everything was looking the way it should, she also gave me some new medication. 

The fourth was with the research team just so I could report anything that had happened. 

When I got home I Wendy took me to the shop because I thought I would try eating some rice pudding, it was nice to be normal for a few minutes but I soon felt quite weak, it shocks me how weak I do feel, the rice pudding hasn't been eaten but I will try at some point hehe. 

So far these last 2 days have been just resting and watching my kids be kids, spending time with Jason. 

Back on it tomorrow here's to the 2nd week of Radiotherapy. 

Love to you all

A xxxxxx