11th of March

Had a really fantastic day yesterday, we took the kids to the park even though I sat on a bench most of the time the fresh air was amazing, the kids were running around laughing and playing together Jason was on the zip wire, which was apparently not for any benefit to him hehe. Just Perfect.

Holly came home from school on Friday, Star of Week she was so proud because she gets to bring Patch home this is a toy hamster but we have to take it everywhere and take photos and we write it all up in a book. 

 

On Thursday's our kids go to a child minders, because normally I'm at work till late and Jason doesn't get home till after 6 anyway Shelly took pictures of Holly's drawings because she did it on wipe board and couldn't bring it home, it's Me and I'm sad because I can't go and play she even put the PEG tube in my tummy bless her. Xxxxxx

 
  

The food pump is really helping, I've now got the intake of food from 10hours down to 3 and half hours which again makes life a lot nicer, and I feel so much better now I've got the vitamins etc I need. 

On Friday when I went to Weston Park I asked what was happening about the Chemo I didn't have last Monday, I was given the option not to have it, I asked what are the benefits to the Chemo so it was explained, due to me being fit and young (I liked that fit and YOUNG hehe) they like to give us the best chance of cure so even though Chemo isn't the primary treatment it's radiotherapy, the doctors feel it has a advantage. So there was no thinking needing I need the Chemo, I've got to beat this so I'm booked in for it Monday through to Tuesday so I know it's gonna make me really ill again but I've got to try everything possible. I've now got blisters appearing in my mouth and my skin is going red these are the side affects of the radiotherapy it will get worse but it's not for ever. 

So today is Sunday and it's family time wether it's just sat cuddling my beautiful, amazing strong babies or we go somewhere I don't know yet I take ever hour as it's comes now, don't expect anything and the little things are perfect. 

Lots of Love 

Amanda xxxxxxxx