20th of March

So I was allowed home on Friday, which felt great been able to see my babies I missed them so much, I miss everything about home but in a strange way felt safe in hospital. 

I can't believe the change again in me my mouth is so sore now, my lips are swollen and I can't stop coughing yuk up again, I don't know where it keeps coming from. My mouth has the most awful taste in it all the time I can't seem to get rid of it, but this is all part of the treatment, I just wish it would all go away now. 

I can't eat or keep my pump feed down due to coughing but I will keep trying got to stay strong. 

I received a beautiful gift of a dear friend and some bra cards from family with such inspirational words in, I thank you form the bottom of my heart xxx

Lyn took the kids for us to the wildlife park yesterday, I'm so worried they aren't have fun on weekends and Kristian and Holly had a sleepover, Franchesca came home but that's ok bless her. 

I don't know what else to say today this is one hell of a journey but I'm getting there, it's certainly tough and a lot tougher than I can describe but we will get to the end and hopefully we can start to be normal again, well Amanda's normal hehe xxx

Love to you all

Amanda xxxxxxx