22nd of March

So I had to come back in hospital on Monday evening I wasn't eating or drinking, it's been really hard not being at home with kids and Jason I miss them all so much, but I know I need to be here. 

Dr Foran came to see me today and told me I've done so well but it's now time for the hospital to look after me, this made me upset but she said I can go home on Friday but must come back Monday and stay all week on the ward. 

Today we've started the feeding through the pump again very slow 25mls a hour so it will take 20hours but it doesn't matter because it's what I need. 

I've started using a nebulizer to help with the mucus, which does help for a few hours, it's such a relief to get a rest from the mucus. 

I've been given lots of different tablets and injections including one to thin my blood. 

I've also got to have a blood transfusion. 

I need to go to radiotherapy again today this was hard today but I did it, 7 left to go I will get to the end of this I promise. 

Jason made me so happy tonight he brought all 3 kids to visit me it was just perfect, Franchesca is struggling she cried when she came and cried when she had to go but I really need to get strong to carry this fight to the end. 

So I say night night 

Lots of love 

Amanda xxxxxxxxxxx