1st of March

Well what a start to March and the end of the treatment the last day is the 31st of March it seems more real now we've turned the calendar over the end that is hehe. 

The last couple of days have been really good went to see a friend of mine yesterday for a hour or two, I managed to eat 3 meals and even walked the dog all in all really good days. 

Pete came to pick me up this morning and it was his 70th Birthday but he still came, he was so happy with his present, which made my day. We had a really good time, he was telling loads of things that I didn't know about some of his Adventures and do you know when I'm done with this treatment that's what's happening, we are going to book some family adventures. 

Today traffic was clear and we got to Weston Park in no time but the que to get in the car park was huge, so I jumped out of the car and walked up to Weston the hill up to the hospital seems to harder each week but I got there, booked in and sat and waited for my turn, this is when I think about things and how lucky I feel to be able to have treatment, and such a caring family and friends all around me. 

When it was my turn to go in I got on the table as normal,  but today the mask felt really tight it looks like I'm swelling now hopefully it won't get too bad. 

Once I was back home again, I was greeted with a surprise box and card when I opened the card and the box it was the most beautiful candle I've ever seen and it smells devine, a old friend who I've not seen for many years had sent them to me, I am so lucky xxx

 

All of a sudden I felt exhausted so I decided to have a lay down, I don't know what came over me but my body was saying rest. It's funny because today little things have changed they seem to be more intense, the burning feeling, the exhausted feeling, the painful mouth seems worse today and I think I'm getting worried about the Chemo on Monday through to Tuesday, to the point when Jason came home I had a cry, I'm sorry to say but I cried. It makes me feel selfish crying because I'm been looked after so well, but to be honest it made me feel better, the kids weren't around and perhaps it's what I needed. So it's onwards and upwards again. 

See you all very soon 

Lots of love 

Amanda xxxxxx